Beneath the hush of hollow skies, I drift,a phantom stitched from all I should have kept.The stars above—once lanterns, now they shiftto stones that weigh me deeper in regret.Their light, once kind, now watches with disdain,while silence folds me in its endless reign. I carved this wreck from hands once meant to shield,let fall the... Continue Reading →
Some days I convince myself I’ve moved on. That I’m healing. And in some ways, I am. But then there are nights when it all comes rushing back—the ache, the silence, the empty space where you used to be. And I realize I’m still reaching out in the dark, hoping to find you there.
I walk through rooms that do not know my name,where silence echoes louder than my breath.Each step, a ghost’s; half-here, half-lost in shame,unseen beneath the weight of nearing death.I’ve smiled in ways that mimic those who heal,while bleeding out behind my quiet eyes.No scream escapes; they’d only call it “real”if blood could form its truth... Continue Reading →
A dark and stormy night does come once more,A shroud of sadness wraps around my heart,A pain that’s all familiar, I abhor,A cycle that I hoped I’d played a part. I thought that I had conquered it, but no,It rises again, a towering wave,And all my efforts, I’m starting to know,Have proven worthless, powerless to... Continue Reading →
i open my eyes to the light of day;i heave sighs hoping the bleeding goes away.but my day all starts in total darknessas prayer departs from my godless lips. i close my eyes in the darkness of nights,my breath heavy with pain as the past bitesand shadows of old i try to run away fromchase... Continue Reading →
you knew how i was broken, how i didn’t have enough of myself. you knew from the start: i had doubts, i was insecure, i felt inadequate, i was hurt. you knew i had my guards up, my walls towering, myself protected. i surrendered all these to you because you showed me that you knew.... Continue Reading →
In one of my previous posts, I shared my battle against general anxiety and major depressive disorder and what I have done to start my journey toward wellness. One step I have taken is to seek professional help. Doing so was both relieving and frightening at the same time: I was ready to become better,... Continue Reading →
without me, the sun will still shine and share its warmth to the world. without me, the moon will still glow and show its beauty, conquering the darkness. without me, the flowers will still bloom and make this world beautiful. without me, the seas will still rush to shore and give comfort to those who... Continue Reading →
Those who know me have seen how different I have been lately. It was something I did not want to acknowledge at first; I did not want to admit—even to myself—that I have changed, and not for the better. It was difficult for me to actually put things into perspective, let alone words, that I... Continue Reading →
Most people believe that mental health illness are rare and “happen to someone else.” In fact, mental health conditions are common and widespread. Mental health and mental illness are increasingly being used interchangeably, but they do not mean the same thing. Everyone has mental health, just like everyone has health. In the course of a... Continue Reading →
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